Maturity

For all who don't know I work at Wendys you know "Eat Great Even Late". Well I guess you can call me blessed to work with the younger generation; I know I am still a part of it. Anyways I want to know if there is a thin line between being young and mature, young and immature, older and mature, or older and still immature? Is there a thin line or not? I find myself asking that all the time depending on what I am witnessing. I had some fun at work we really weren't busy so we decided to play dodge ball in the dining room and it was weird because I for once played the game. I am usually the one who continuously works and watches everyone else have fun. I guess that is were I am just to mature for my age and I think every once in a great while you have to bring the kid out and play with them a little. Well tonight was the night and I had fun. No matter how mad or frustrated I become this other manager can and will always be able to make me laugh and I was on the floor rolling all night long. He might be older than me but he is still a kid at heart and I think I am jealous that he can have fun no matter what he is doing. Is there some reason why I am so mature for my age? My whole life I was always more mature than my brother and still am it is like I was born first in spirit. Why does God make some people more mature? Is it because they might have a shorter life so he tries to get them to adult hood faster? Maybe it is because he knows that you are going to succeed so he matures you faster so you can be at the top before everyone else?
I am glad in a way to have the pleasure of working with teenagers because I can shape their minds, give them advise to be better at what they do, and have pride in their job. The other great thing is the young keep the older young so the older don't feel like old mature people. The down fall is that immaturity brings drama. You all know the highschool drama that you really never escape. Well I am in the trenches with that everyday I work. At least it mixes it up or it woud just be boring. In a way the immature and the mature brought together kinda balances out to have a great place to work. My general manager had his 61st birthday on Tuesday and I wrote in his card that I think of him as my dad, and when I saw him yesterday he said, that was weird because he thought of me as his daughter, I thought that was sweet. I pray that God will let the inner kid come out and play more often so I don't feel so old all the time.

Trust?

Trust is a very sensitive issue that I have a problem with. It is very hard for me to trust someone even if I have known them forever. I have been lied to a lot in the food business like when you have crew calling off and they give you this total lie, but you have to believe it is the truth so you don't accuse them of lying. After a while the truth comes out and you feel like you were taken advantage of. For example, there was this one crew member that called off three days in a row and when he came back he said he was in a car accident and he couldn't get out of bed during those days. For over two weeks he walked to work and said his car was in the shop, because the car had major body damage. Around a month later I find out that the whole story was a lie and the reason he didn't come in to work was that he was tired. You work so closely with these people that you want to trust them and be friends with them, but right when you start trusting them wham! They take advantage of you. Once again in this business you come across some people that are two faced and they can't help themselves to start drama and cause disruptions for the rest of the team. When those people say something to you that you, yourself does not want to believe. Should you trust them? Or should you see if you can get the info from another source that is more trust worthy? Or go right to the source of the problem to see if the problem is really a problem? The only one I can trust in this situation is God because he is the one who puts the hurdles in your way to make you stronger for what else may come. God does this so he can build your character and your soul.
Without trust there can be no emotion. I don't trust a lot of people so when I meet them or talk to them I put my guard up(for me the guard is this huge wall that takes a very long time for me to push it down or let someone climb over it). I fear that I am going to be stuck with this wall forever it is almost automatic for the wall to be up, like when meeting new people I am very shy and unusually quite around the ones I like. However, I never end up talking to them because I am too shy. Will the wall ever let emotion thru? Is there a reason why I don't show emotion? Is it to protect my self and my own heart?, or the ones around me? I pray that God will give me the strength to overcome this hurdle and let me interact with these few people with out any conflict that would hurt me or the ones around me. I know God loves us, but with out pain there is no love. So he gives us pain so we can know the love he has for us. Then he gives us trust so we can find the tangible love we all seek or have found, but can you find that love without emotion? I think every day that passes I need God more and more nomatter the quantity I had the day before the hunger for him gets stronger and stronger by each second that passes. By this time I am starving and in desperate need of his love and devotion. I hunger for you Lord, I thirst for you Lord, if you fill me up I will love you and follow you till the end of time.

The Last Four Months

For me the past is any time before I was Saved. In the last four months I have made a 360 from my old life that was in the past to my present one that I love. A little background about me I was in a relationship for three and a half years that in the end I came to realize that it was a soul draining relationship. After the break I found myself to have no love left to give. My heart and soul were very weak that it was hard for me to even smile. All my heart wanted to do was to fall in love all over again, but when your heart is empty there is really nothing to give. Your heart wants to find that one person that will fill it up once more. The strange thing is that the thing you miss most about a relationship is that you are secure and know that there is someone who loves you and is always there for you, and the strange part is that God gives you that security and he is always there for you no matter what you do or what happends in your life. My heart finally found its love, the man I am to be with and that man is G O D. Eventhough, I am not in a physical relationship I am in a relationship with God and I have to keep it going just in any relationship both parties become sad or frustrated when we don't hear from one another, or we are not seeing the whole picture. I know God has the perfect plan for me and he will reveal it when he thinks I am ready and until then all I can do is pray , read the word, and love the ones around me.

This is me

I am princess Wendy, master of all burgers on warner and val vista.